Last time it was my India Ink, this time it was my indigo. Apparently, some moisture got in it somehow. It was toast.
SO…not wanting to give up my Brighid-dedicated body art, I grabbed a Bic Crystal pen and started drawing!!! I actually love the Bic. The design lasts longer, and is a lot clearer. I really enjoy creating the art, too- as much or more than the indigo. I may stick with this, for practicality as well as aesthetics.
I spent the evening in some meditation, and I worked on my therapy homework. This was a very rewarding experience, actually. I also did a little bit of journaling.
I had planned on starting my studies of the LBAC tonight, but I’m tired enough that I don’t think I could do it and have it ’stick’. Or even manage to get through it without my eyes swimming. I’ve been working 9 hour days this week and it’s been stressful all around. I’m exhausted.
I’m feeling a pull to get going on my creative work again. It’s been slow going in that department. I may just pick up my pen and have at my other leg tonight. 
This shift was dedicated to creating, and learning to use, a set of cowries for divination (Gwyddon style!!!). The cowries are beautiful, and I have had relatively good success using them for the first time. 
I did have a good time trying to find a lost cowrie in the middle of ritual, though.
This time around I tried something a bit different with my indigo dye. I combined it with India ink in order to get a two-tone design. It was pretty cool, but unfortunately my India ink is toast. The container somehow ceased to be air tight, and it was a thick mess when I went to use it. I watered it down some, but it still wasn’t the same. Was no longer waterproof, and started to wear easily. I wound up washing it off later in the night. I’ll try again, but with better ink. 
Last night I did a one card Tarot reading to try to discern what I should do in order to enjoy the time I have with a close friend and stop worrying about our relationship. The answer: I need to listen more. When I got down stairs, to my surprise, he had messaged me during my Cill work. We chatted until 12:30 AM or so.
It occurs to me that I really should drag more of my Cill brothers and sisters in here.
I missed the first half of the group shift for Beltaine…I tend to do this, for some reason. I suck at holidays. I celebrate them on the astrological date, so I wind up doing things on a different day than everyone else, and I forget the ’standard’ holiday.
I’m not doing as much this shift as I usually do; it’s been a busy week, and a busy day. I’m exhausted, and I’m not feeling well. I really need some rest. Yesterday I got my new Celtic Women CD, and I love it!!! I had a therapy session today, and it went really well, although my anxiety is starting to kick up again. This happens when I get tired. It sucks.
My new Tarot cards came yesterday and I did some work with them tonight, but nothing much. Just to get a ‘feel’ for them. I want to do more with them soon, and I also am interested in learning to throw cowrie…not sure I’ll do much with that, but it interests me. My main interests are Runes and Tarot.
I’ve been doing some creative work, making skins for a friend’s forum. I am thinking about making necklaces for the Gwyddoniad, or bracelets, that say WSSL. If I have more energy tomorrow, I might see what I can do with that. I’m thinking engraved beads.
A poem, and also, perhaps, a prayer, indirectly related to Brighid.
steady and tall
a heron wades deep
still in slow waters
gazing down into depths
holding wisdom
pearls to be uncovered
I can only dive so far
I can only stand so tall
but I stand with you
I fly with you
